A dip in the Pool.

So....I'm fat. 

That is my identifier; if you asked someone what I looked like they would say, tall, brown hair, blue eyes, and fat. I have always been fatter then most and for a long time I was not okay with it. It's only with in the past few years that I have really accepted that I'm always going to be fat and I'm fucking awesome regardless of what my clothing sizes are.

There is a whole 'fat acceptance' movement afoot and it's really helped me see that fat does not equal worthless. So with my new found self worth I took my fat awesome body swimming. You read that right swimming, in a (semi) public pool. Wearing a red sports bra and cut off purple sweat pants. It was a last minute wardrobe choice as I have not worn a swimsuit in years (I don't even own one any more) and didn't have time to find a bad ass fatkini.

I was a bit worried someone was going to say something against what I was wearing and talked my self out of going several time but when we got there......no one said anything. Nothing. I took my Castiel t-shirt off, kicked off my flip flops, rubbed in some sun screen and got it the pool. I swam and played and laughed for over an hour. It was awesome. I didn't even hesitate when getting out of the water either. I felt liberated, I felt beautiful and for the first time in a long time I felt dare I say.....sexy.


So to all of my fat identifiers out there I have one thing to say: Do it. Wanna go for a swim? Do it. Want to ware a body-con dress? Do it. Want to ware cutoffs? Do it. It may sound cliched but we only have this one life right now and it's way to short to waste it. So go out and do it.

Ta for now,
Kayla

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