I think to much....

It's one of the things that holds me back yet keeps me "safe"....I think way to much.

I'm always thinking and planning and making lists in my head about things I need to do, want to do, should be doing. Thinking about people, TV, movies, books and other random things. Always thinking and it's really a hard thing to turn off, especially when I want to sleep. Then I dream. Oh man do I dream. Anyway I have and a something on my mind I wanted to really...think...about.

What am I living for?  Deep, I know. But really, what purpose does my life have? Am I thinking to hard about this? I used to think my mission in life was to rescue animals and that was a reality for many years but now I don't feel that way anymore. I don't have a significant other, or human children to spend my time with. It's just me and my fur kids. I love my dogs and cats and feel very blessed to have them in my life, with out them I would be utterly lost. So, what now? Why do other people get out of bed in the morning? I get up to let the dogs out. Why do other people go to work? I go to be able to pay for dog food and chocolate. Why do other people do what they do? I don't do much of anything, even when I did rescue it always seamed.... unfulfilled in some way. I was elated to be able to save the lives of all of the animals I have helped but yet here I am. Is it okay to just live? To have no end goal? To just be in the moment? How do others go about their day to day with out thinking of the days, weeks, months ahead? How do I just be? See, I think to much. I do know this though, whatever I do I need to do it with a strong heart, mind and soul. Be true, honest and kind.


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