Green is the new Emotion

Green is one of my favorite colors but not when it comes to my emotions. Being Green with Envy or Green Eyed Monster of Jealousy is not a good color on anyone.

I try to be unbiased, optimistic and real in everything that I do. I know my limits and thrive to learn all that I can so I can better myself and be the kind of person my nieces and nephews can look up to. Yet the one place I fail is with those Green Emotions.

There are few people in my life that I look up to and the other day I asked myself why. Why should I look up to these people and base my life choices, everyday choices with them in mind? Why should anyone look at me that way? Would I want them to? Would these people I admire want me to look up to them?

I have learned the hard way to just let go of those Green Emotions. Instead of putting these people on high thinking they can do no wrong; and even if they did they would have no repercussions, I see them as the wonderfully flawed people that they are. No one person is perfect nor can they become perfect.

I hate to feel like I am lacking or that I have failed in my own eyes or in the eyes of another. In the past I would have hid away and ignored it but now that I have learned to face it, fix it and learn from it I feel like I can go beyond those Green Emotions.

I now understand the difference in wanting other peoples' happiness and being able to make my own happiness. I'm still learning how to be happy and accepting that what I thought I wanted is truly not what I need.

Happy is an emotion I try to feel everyday. To laugh, love and learn.

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